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Survey - AB/DL Odds and Ends - Favorite Items and Activities

Prepared by Egor

39)Would you like to share more about your favorite item or activity? (optional)

In the survey, this question followed questions #31 through #34, on practices and paraphernalia. Those questions had five short blanks, and were intended to gather a broad list of items and activities. For balance, this question was focused on capturing what about a favorite item or activity was enjoyed, or why.

As with other essay answers, the below subsample has been cleaned up for readability. Vague or largely overlapping answers were omitted. Any references to illegal or medically unsafe practices were also omitted, although one practice that might cause expensive and embarrassing damage to household plumbing was retained. A few responses were split into individual points so that they could be categorized appropriately.

• Baby Paraphernalia and Outfits
• Diapers
• Regression
• Toys
• Games
• Bed time
• Roleplay
• BDSM
• Diaper Lovers
• Sexual
• Misc

Baby Paraphernalia and Outfits

• Just feeling the security of being diapered is the best feeling I can have. I feel lost without my diaper on.
• My favorite outfit would have to be a sailor suit with shorts that button to the top, but I also like rompers and shortalls. I suppose 'cute but practical' would describe the look I want.
• Wish I could wear diapers more often, sometimes 24/7 for wetting purposes only. One particular interest is rumba panties with lace. There would be times when I would love to wear a clear diaper cover so everyone could see my cloth diaper and diaper pins.
• There is nothing like wearing a diaper and rubber pants, then peeing and pooping in them and either drinking Breastmilk from a bottle or sucking my pacifier.
• My DL [interests have been] lifelong and my AB side was in fantasy "reincarnation" only, until I discovered the AB/DL community. It has only been very recently that I had interest in actually having adult-size baby objects outside of diapers.
• I'm usually dressed in toddler clothes when I go out, unless I'm obliged to wear a suit for work, etc. My teddy bear comes everywhere with me and I'd never go out without him.
• I have these really awesome bottles. They are actually calf feeding bottles, but they fit a normal baby nipple. I covered them in cubby patterned shelf paper to make them more babyish. At home I almost exclusively drink from one of them.
• I find I am more comfortable when dressed as a little baby girl. I want to get more baby girl styled clothes.
• My favorite AB item is my skunk sleeper. It is very soft and cute. It makes me feel babyish when I wear it.
• I love designing my own big baby outfits. I buy regular overalls and shortalls. Then I go out to the second hand stores looking through the baby outfits looking for really big sewn on babyish looking patches, then I remove them from the baby outfit, and hand-sew them onto my big baby overalls and shortalls. Then I wear them out in public. I also buy onesies on eBay to match my outfits. I also make my own big baby bottles out of regular water bottles that are from 100-500 ML or 16 ounce bottle. I remove the top, then use a hole saw that you use to cut out a dead-bolt and cut out the center of the top, and then use a razor knife to smooth the edges out and put in a fast flow baby nipple in the top.  I also make my own big baby pacifier holders out of colored girls' headbands, I sew them onto a regular pacifier clip that match the color of my outfit, and put a loop on it to attach a pacifier.
• Being bottle fed is the absolute best thing I've ever experienced. Being held and taken care of like that, where you don't even need to sit up. It's unconditional love, the knowledge that they're always going to be there for you, no matter what you need.  I'm always tense and constantly stressed out, but that makes me feel completely safe and relaxed. Like everything's going to be okay and I'm free to actually be myself, express every need or desire. I've tried to suppress, and still be loved.  To a lesser extent, I like that other baby activities can be done along with it. Your caretaker can sing you a lullaby, you can be dressed however you want, you can use your diaper, or almost anything.

Diapers

• I love thick disposable diapers that are plastic backed, wetting and messing them.
• I love to sit back watch a Disney movie while drinking formula [from a] bottle, and wet and poop my diapers as many times as possible.
• I like scented diapers ( apple, banana, cherry, etc. )
• I like to remove my pubic hair and wear diapers.
• Alone, the best thing is just wearing a nappy and feeling cute.
• Only ABU's Cushies, Super Dry Kids, BMX, Bambino's Classico, Teddy, Belissimo, and Europe's Fabine I will accept.
• I love to have a thick fluffy cloth nappy put on me and then I will be a baby in it.
• For me, the most important aspect is "getting to normal." Normal for me is diapered. I can only go so long not being diapered before I stress out or start having accidents or both. I am most functional when I am diapered at least some of the time.
• My favorite AB/DL activity is simply wearing diapers. I only wear them at night, but I wear them almost every night. I never use them for their intended purpose.
• Just love my special time in diapers, some sort of dangerous security in comfort kept very discrete also very sexual and exciting for me in the right setting :)
• Since I discovered my AB/DL side in life I have come to learn that many of my favorite objects and activities have either become better... For example one of the many objects that became clearer to me was my yellow blanket. Since I can remember I have always owned the blanket and slept with it, not to mention kept my habit of biting personal objects like the blanket. I had always wondered why it was something close to me. When I go back to the history of how I got it you wouldn't really think that it would keep a personal value other than a warm piece of cloth for nighttime use. At the age of 1, according to my family I had stolen it from my older cousin randomly and have since kept it. It was nothing more than a stolen blanket that I ended up keeping which really served no purpose besides its obvious use that for some reason has always struck me as an item that must be kept till the very end. When I discovered more about my interest in the AB/DL it became a bit clearer.
• To me, it's primarily about being comfortable in my own skin and feeling safe and protected. I have never had a partner, but I would want one that would look out for me, keep me safe, care for me, and be a nurturing parental figure to me. Diapers have always been the biggest focus of my interests, but knowing that someone is there for me to think of me as cute and precious would be absolutely amazing.
• I was forced to wear wet cloth diapers and plastic pants for punishment, since I was a bed wetter from a very young age; the pink plastic pants were added for embarrassment. I was spanked for wetting and forced to wear the diapers I had wet in. I was also brought in front of the neighbors and their daughters for punishment. Problem was I loved sleeping in wet diapers and plastic pants and the thrill of being seen in them, hence my behavior to this day.
• I like the smell of pee after I have had my diaper on for 24 hours of peeing only. I wish that there was a body diaper that I could have on for a week, eat only baby food, and have a woman breast feed me.
• I love to layer two or three disposable diapers and wear pants that clearly show that I'm diapered. Then I go to a busy mall or the zoo. I climb into my electric wheelchair (I don't need one). I zoom around all day, while drinking and wetting and enjoy the varied looks that I get from people. My favorite is a look from a woman "Oh that poor little man needs to wear diapers, but he doesn't even know that everyone can tell that he's wearing diapers".
• I love taking baths wearing all the different types of diapers I have at the moment. First usually goes something like pull-ups, then dry nights, then female urinal pads, then sometimes a diaper crafted from two child-size diapers, then there goes Tena or Seni diapers and it is covered with Molicare (my favorite ). Then sometimes it is covered by a absorbent pad for changing tied and stapled in such a way to be "the largest diaper". Next I lay in the bathtub full of warm water or sometimes use the shower. It is really fun to have a feeling of these layers getting EVEN THICKER and heavier.

Regression

• It's my stuffed Totoro from when I was little and I've had it forever so it's easy to regress while I hold him.
• My favorite activity is mostly cuddling with my partner while in little mode. I am extremely clingy when in little mode. In private I will be right next to my partner, and in public I will constantly be holding their hand. To feel physically small is the most relaxing and comforting aspect of my fetish. Also the constant touching makes me feel small.
• I just love ALL aspects about being a baby girl, with all desires to be totally regressed back to complete infancy!!!
• My favorite activity is right after I wet a diaper, having my girlfriend change it. It feels so good, and then I change hers.
• I like to regress to when I was a child and diapered for bed wetting.
• I think the time that I regress to would be early infancy, when I would wear a diaper and onesie, sleeping. So toddler stuff/playing doesn't interest me much, I guess.
• I feel a tremendous amount of security being diapered, snuggling my teddy bear, and held by someone who understands and accepts me for who I am.
• I love replaying what it was like to be recently toilet trained little boy, still having all sorts of pee and sometimes larger accidents in my pants and just feeling all the feelings of that with curious pleasure and no self-consciousness.
• I really would like to be regressed and get a fuller experience. I believe it could also help me understand and get more comfortable with that side of me. I have a hard time getting really in character. For me, it is more a way to release stress but mostly in a dissociated way though I'd like to explore it more from the inside.
• I really enjoy regressing with hypnosis.
• On the regression question, I can't remember the last time I regressed. I used to do it more often, but it has been a long time. Most of this might be due to the fact that I have a boyfriend who loves and accepts me so much--the AB/DL thing hardly matters anymore, unless I am away from home and left to myself
• I use my little as a coping mechanism/meditation skill. I wear a diaper and plastic pants, nothing else, and cuddle with my wife/mommy role. She holds me and I suck my thumb and drift off into meditation. I go back to a time that I remember my mother diapering me for bed because I still wet at night. She put me into my crib and played/comforted me until I went to sleep. I envision my adult self going down a hall to a door at my bedroom in 1965. I have to leave everything outside and enter into the mind of my little and just relax and be comforted to sleep. Unfortunately I can only stay there for about an hour to hour and a half before my broken old body brings be back to real time. Then I just roll over and go to sleep, or do anything my wife is interested in.
• I don't often regress and have no interest in onesies, pacifiers, etc., as I usually regress to later stages of childhood - when I'm old enough to know better. I just enjoy messing my diaper and sometimes sucking my thumb.

Toys

• My favorite stuffed animal is very special to me. I take him everywhere, the only public play I do.
• Norman is my stuffy. He's a monkey and I like to hold him close to my chest or in the crook of my arm.
• Mr. Bear is the best cuddler.
• My two favorite items are my bears. I have a Grumpy Bear Care Bear, and a Lotso Huggin' Bear from Toy Story 3. Both are rather large in size, with each about 26" tall. My first one was my Care Bear, I get this overwhelming feeling of innocence and it's like I'm a kid again. The same thing happened when I was watching Toy Story 3. I feel in love with Lotso. They mean a lot to me.
• My favorite item would probably be Bobby Bear. He's a very well traveled bear that goes everywhere with me and I tell him everything. My favorite activity was curling up with my wife/mummy, unfortunately she died just under a year ago, so now it's curled up in bed in my cloth nappy and rubbers, my dummy and "Bobby Bear".
• The teddy bears ... are actually my wife's. I like them because the happiness she feels when she is with them. There is nothing ABDL about them. :)
• I have a stuffed monkey named Bandit.
• Teddy is my favorite stuffed toy. He helps me to relax. Sometimes, when I can't sleep at night, I cuddle up with Teddy and he relaxes me enough so that I can sleep. I do this even if I am not regressed at the time.
• They help me regress and relax but they are also extremely personal and important to me. They have their own personalities almost. I know they are only inanimate objects but it's like they soak up all the pain and stress and anxiety and just replace it with love and comfort. They're amazingly cute and fun to play with as well. I would choose my plushies over food if I was homeless. That's how much I care about them, because it's like they care about me; even though I know that's impossible.
• My favorite item happens to be a cuddly toy dog from the anime series Naruto, Akamaru.
• My favorite item is my stuffed Theodore from Alvin and the Chipmunks. My grandma sent it to me and I hadn't touched it since I was 2. I get this warm feeling in my heart when I hug it, that's beautiful.
• I love my bear, she's my favorite to snuggle (besides Daddy, of course). I dress her up pretty. She holds onto my paci whenever I don't use it, I clip it to her shirt or dress.
• My favorite items are my stuffed animals. I have two special ones, a panda bear called Toki that my boyfriend bought for me on our first ever date, a baby seal called Scrambles. (He's my boyfriend's but I'm attached to him and take him home from time to time). I would be very upset if I lost them. Toki and Scrambles make me happy when I'm lonely and when my boyfriend isn't next to me.
• I am currently considering purchasing a teddy bear that wears a cute little T-shirt proclaiming "Denmark rocks!" because, well, culture play.
• I have a particularly special puppy dog stuffed animal that my Daddy and I made at Build a Bear while he was here. Since it was made by both of us and holds a heart from both of us it is especially special to me. I keep him with me every night! My stuffy is able to calm me down many times when other things are not.
• My teddy is extremely important to me though had been absent for many years due to the secrecy associated with my tendencies. Since these are now open to my wife I have been able to openly reintroduce a teddy to my life. Given the opportunity I would carry him with me often, perhaps always. Holding my teddy strongly reveals my innermost desires. I would say that I feel a genuine affection toward it.
• My stuffed animals are a big part of my activities as an adult baby, but I also enjoy cuddling with them when I'm not in AB mode too. They've been comforting for me to sleep with since I was a young teenager.
• My favorite item is my stuffed fox plushie called Fizzy. I would be utterly destroyed if I ever had to give him up or lost him.
• My favorite bunny is named Sally, and she is my first favorite color: purple. I do believe that she can feel things like people...I believe all stuffed animals can.
• My plushie monkey that I've had for 30 years, she often sleeps with me, taking turns with my teddy, Professor Dan D. Lion
• My favorite items are very special to me. They are inherently special to me in a way I cannot describe, and it's not just my stuffed animals or lovey's; it's any plushie or lovey. It's like they were created to be loved and it makes me sad when they aren't because I feel like they are sad. I do personify my toys in that they are happy, scared or sad. But I don't really "think/believe" that they are alive. For example if you asked me if Penelope (one of my stuffed rabbits) was alive I would say "no". But if I was asked how Penelope was doing? I would say, "Penelope isn't very happy right now, because I had to wash her. She was very scared, because she couldn't breathe underwater and was too hot in the dryer!"
• One favorite item is a 1989 animatronic Mother Goose audio cassette player. At times I lost TV privileges for something I hadn't done; I would comfort myself by placing an identical Mother Goose inside my brother's playpen and watch her through the mesh, pretending I was watching a TV show.  Another recent favorite is a small dollar-store teddy bear bought while out with a friend who is aware of my AB habits. This teddy bear has become an embodiment of the temporary (?) imaginary Daddy I created in the absence of my ex-partner.

Games

• I like having diapers while playing video games, for example "The Elder Scroll Skyrim", "Battlefield 3" etc...
• Being a young child in the virtual world called Second Life gets me through the tougher times when I am ill, or in pain, or suffering the effects of my bipolar disorder.

Bed time

• I'm to the point that I would have trouble sleeping if I didn't have my Rufus (fox plush) and my paci. I've found such comfort in these items that if I don't have them, I feel empty, sad, and lonely inside. The diaper is not necessary for sleep, but I've also found that I typically sleep better (wake up earlier and feel more rested) when I go to bed in a diaper.
• Sleeping in my bed wearing a thick diaper with my stuffed animals. The bed has blankets to make it perfectly dark and has soft brown sheets and a blanket to cuddle up with.
• I sleep with a pacifier every night and even need it to some extent.
• I have a bear and a blanket my wife made for me 17 years ago that are my "must have" things. Without them I can't sleep or function very well at night.
• I still sleep with my original baby blanket every night.
• My Favorite activity each night is to take off all the adult world cloths, thoughts, worries, stress, and put on a night time diaper, diaper cover, and an onesie ( footed sleeper if it is winter). Then fill my ba-ba with some juice, or tea, bring out Cookie Monster, crawl into bed, and end my day.

Roleplay

• I just enjoy the nurturing Mommy/Baby role-play. There is nothing special about it.
• Prolonged foreplay with both parties role-playing and in wet diapers
• I'm just a DL. My deepest wish right now is that I could find someone to role-play as a nurturing mommy, to feel the love that comes from a mommy.
• The idea of switching roles is very exciting to me, being the daddy one day, and the little boy the next. I have never had the opportunity to experience this though, as I have never found a female partner who was willing to accept this fetish.
• I like parties and other AB/DL events because I can really role play and get into it. I have a hard time getting into the role otherwise.
• My favorite thing to do is to spend time with my caretaker while being really childish.
• Sure. My last relationship lasted for seven years. We were Daddy and little girl. We were also husband and wife, and dominant and submissive. At one point I was being a bit of a brat. We were at home but had kinky guests. My Daddy put me in the corner, and made me sing silly songs. Like "The ants go marching", and "I'm a little tea pot". He also made me do the actions for those songs. I was in the corner nose close to the wall, in the kitchen, and people were coming in and out, and talking as if I wasn't there. It was very humiliating, in a fun way. I regressed and my Daddy demanded that I sing the "ABC" song. I got to E, and couldn't remember the rest of the song. He scolded me for not being a big girl, but I just couldn't get passed the letter E! After awhile he let me out of the corner we hugged and cuddled on the couch. I was just amazed that I couldn't remember my ABC's!
• Verbal humiliation and role-play is the hottest aspect of AB/DL play for me. I love being told that I have to wear diapers, that I need to wear them, that I'm a bed wetter, that I'm a pants-wetter, that I thought I was all grown up but I'm not even ready for training pants, let alone big-boy underwear, etc. Though I've only done this once, I also really enjoy verbal humiliation from the other side (telling a diapered guy the things I'd want to hear if I was the one in diapers). It was a big surprise to learn that I enjoyed the dominant role.

BDSM

• I love when my partner double or triple diapers me with added booster pads, so it is really thick. Then put on a locking plastic pants so that my partner controlling the key. I am totally at his mercy as to when I can change my wet and/or messy diaper.
• I like a good spanking before a diaper is put on me.
• My favorite activity is when my "Daddy" tells me what to do and spanks me.
• For me a BDSM element sometimes comes into play. I like to wet my diaper right before bed and hope I wet while sleeping, just so I can wet and then mess when I wake up and then play in it for a while... but afterwards I always feel ashamed with myself.
• My favorite is to combine ABDL and BDSM. Wearing and wetting diapers adds a whole new level of submission, especially when tied up. I'm also into chastity play, which may merit further comment. The chastity belt keeps my masturbation habit in check (for weeks at a time), and factors in nicely into a role where sex is not allowed for me. Of course my partner gets to use me. Few things are as humiliating as having to lick the wife to satisfaction, while all the release I'll be getting is to wet myself. Extended chastity also has the effect of making me want to wear diapers more often. I think it's great for the ABDL/BDSM combination when circumstances allow for playing.
• My absolute favorite activity is Diaper Bondage, which may fall a little outside of the scope of this survey. Suffice to say, diapers and bondage have incredible synergy. Bondage ensures that diapers are used. Diapers ensure that bondage doesn't have to end for a *long* time. It's beautiful, really :)
• My AB side is entirely about sexual fantasy of being discovered for using and enjoying diapers, and being repeatedly molested as a result. My lifestyle is that of an adult caregiver to an AB that mostly likes things all sweetness and light. Balance? LOL!

Diaper Lovers

• I have been a DL since my early teens and often wore nappies in secret, this carried on throughout my adult life, often causing problems and embarrassment in relationships and my parents. I now have genuine medical incontinence and I wear for protection, I still have a deep need to wear and wet diapers, but now have the perfect excuse. I just hide my pleasure of doing it from most people. When younger I used to hide my feelings deeply away and missed a lot of interaction with others, as I've got older I'm less concerned about the secrecy and more into sharing my experiences.
• I am rather sure I am a DL, though I do enjoy wearing footed sleepers and would enjoy being skinny enough to wear the largest sizes of Goodnites (or maybe even Pampers). My wife knows, and I have been in diapers in just about every routine situation possible. I've learned, though, that I get tired of continuous wearing after about three days, so if I ever became actually incontinent I'd be pulling my hair out in frustration soon thereafter!

Sexual

• I would like having sex with another DL.
• My fetish for denim (wearing overalls and seeing women wearing tight jeans/denim overalls) can be used for sexual arousal without the need to include nappies.
• I am not quite sure why I developed a diaper fetish, but I do remember masturbating as a child (from approx 18 months or so) while I was still in diapers and plastic pants. I was only compelled to masturbate after I had pooped in my diapers and only in my bed during the night. After potty training I stopped masturbating until I turned 5 years old.
• I've had a diaper fetish since I was about 4, but only recently discovered my AB side. When I started masturbating I would do so while thinking about training pants, potty training, and accidents (this was around age 4). I haven't worn an actual diaper since potty training, just makeshifts.
• As I was beginning to explore my AB/DL sexuality around the age of 15 or 16, I briefly experimented with wetting a makeshift diaper while standing in the shower. Following the act, I tried to inspect the bundled bed sheet when I felt an emotional explosion take over my body. Unable to control myself, I repeatedly smeared the soiled cloth against my face for some time. It was terrifying, my brain was not in control of my body any longer. Though I did not achieve ejaculation, I was left in an intense, sexually excited state and beset immediately by intense shame and frustration by my lack of control and by my behavior.

Misc

• There's so much, so I can only tell that at this very moment my trained bedwetting is my favorite part of this great passion.
• Diapers are becoming more of a necessity in today's fast paced lifestyles and overcrowded populations.  Public restrooms are absolutely disgusting and many more people should start embracing diapers because it is liberating and freeing.  I cannot tell you the damage I have caused myself by holding in my urge to urinate and have actually avoided liquids and have many times experienced severe dehydration.
• Splat. And DISNEYLAND!!!
• I am in a totally different category than the AB/DLs because I am incontinent. My doctors, friends and wife all know. It is not big deal. The AB/DL [community] does interest me because of the wealth of knowledge about products.  I was a bed wetter and had my very first sexual climax wearing my wet diapers. In the 1940s and the 1950s I was utterly fascinated with baby pants and the ads for them in Good Housekeeping Magazine.
• I like to have never stopped wetting the bed at night! (It has strongly developed my diaper fetish.)
• My item is not with me anymore and my activity is playing golf when I get the chance to do so.
• One of my particularly favorite activities to do is to just be held and cuddled. I like the security and comfort it gives me. While I'm being held I also like to have my back rubbed/ scratched.
• Usually I'm more in a young state of mind than not.
• I haven't come across any Asian Indian DL or AB, guy or girl. This is saddening.
• There is just something special about talking to others about these interests. When I say others I mean other people with similar interests. Talking to others helps bring out, and solidify what you like. It feels so nice to explain and elaborate your wants to someone that is willing to listen and can relate.
• I am a Daddy and a DL, so my activities and things I like are going to be a lot different than the AB/DL taking this survey.
• "All of god's creatures have souls, except bears; Bears are godless killing machines" - Stephen Colbert Seriously though, they kill you with cuddles.
• Most of my fantasies involve a girl, but I have never involved any of my girlfriends in diaper fetishes. As a result I sometimes try out ideas on myself simply for the creative satisfaction of bringing the idea into reality. I can pass myself off as female on occasion, in which case I sporadically share the pictures. However, much of my body is hairy and masculine and I don't wish to share, or look at, pictures of me in diapers that make me look masculine. I find that unattractive.
• I dressed up in a footed sleeper for a Halloween costume at work and actually won the contest, another time I did the same thing and went out trick or treating with my child. I got a lot of comments mostly positive from the public.
• The structure I set my life up into makes my habits very black and white. If I'm doing something private, it is in one place where the public has no business being there.
• Experience Project - posting experiences, and replying to others in an informative manner.
• The most important and self-affirming thing to experience would be acceptance from others. I've never met anyone else into this, but if I was free to "be" a kid again and *know* that I'd be looked after, loved unconditionally and told off when I'm naughty (i.e. as an adult, if you're accidentally rude without meaning to be, people notice and hold it against you; if you're a kid, you're told off and can apologize and go back to being loved...) then it would be the most amazing thing in the world.

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